Nothing in all creation is hidden from Gods sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account. (Hebrew 4:13)
My guilt is plain to me, but I’d like to keep it from you. I have chosen between paper and plastic at the checkout line, but, for fear of you knowing my iniquity, I will not confess my choice to you. Perhaps I have forgotten my wife’s birthday, but I’ll never tell you. Once, I might have talked during the national anthem at a ballgame. Maybe, but that might have been somebody else.
Yes, I’m selecting rather trivial offenses, because I really don’t want to talk about the things that I keep hidden, the things that I do, hoping that nobody will see them. I’ve done things in the past, carefully planning my actions so that nobody will see me. I’m not saying what it was I did, of course, since that would defeat the purpose.
But the ridiculous thing here is that I did all of that planning and execution of stealth as a believer in Jesus Christ. In the back of my mind, as the front of my mind was carefully hiding my shame from other people, I knew that the one before whom I needed most to feel shame would not be fooled.
The question I have, when I reflect on these sorts of actions is this. Do I really believe that God sees all? If I do believe, then do I just not care? Or maybe I’m deluding myself about my belief? There are things that I might carefully conceal from my wife, my employer, the IRS, and so forth, knowing that there would be repercussions if my actions were known. But I behave, sometimes, as if the one who sees all, cares about all, and can manifest repercussions of far more magnitude than the others doesn’t really see at all. How can I behave that way?